Ok so something triggered a memory of this one kid I knew, not personally but through acquaintances. This kid was exactly the opposite of me- he didn't really care or consider the way people would view things he did or judge him. For never having met this person I feel strongly affected by him. I guess it's because he symbolizes the life I would live If I was just myself. If I were to ask myself "am I happy?" I don't know if the answer would be yes, or no.

Is it possible for anyone of us to have have ever felt truly happy?

I was... at least I think.

I was so lazy today. Yesterday we drove all the way to the airport to pick up my dad. Messed up thing was he never showed; it turns out his flight was not yesterday but is today at night. I kept trying to fight back sleep the entire way back. Anyways things are pretty good just adjusting to being bound again, it has been a while.

Why do we seek human companionship?

It feels so weak, but right...

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FAIL!

We've all heard it before...

I should've walked back...

I should've told her...

I should've been content...

I should've apologized

I should've said bye...

It was never clear to me until the black veils and silent sobs how borrowed our time is.

None of the so called lessons (regrets) are learned until it's too late.

Why don't we just do things? Fear is an all encompassing tranquilizer.

We can find an antidote.

Cora is straight up Jailbait, lol.

What causes a person's personality to be carved into various shapes and distortions?
The influence of society and it's norms are the chisel and we are the slabs of wood.
I once knew a girl who had the most incredibly beautiful and unique laugh
she has since been turned into a laughing mute:society excised her vocal chords.
I miss my dreams where people were not afraid of their unique qualities.
This is a sleepwalking existence.

P.s.
Rod Blagojevich fucked up big time, it's too bad since he actually did a lot of good..

"happiness is not having to... lie on the floor dead alone."

waking up from a long dream.........I'll always be these empty streets with flashing streetligts, these streets you can never visit.

Jessica is Jailbait.

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