I woke up today, it was pretty cold the only warmth was from the cover I had. I've been sleeping on the couch for like a week now, and it's getting pretty annoying hearing "Fuck Yo Couch!" Okay that doesn't really happen... well maybe in the middle of the night. My room is the coldest in the whole house If its like 8 degrees outside its maybe 15-20 degrees in my room. So I hit the couch and I've noticed I sleep way better there.

    Anyways This weekends going to be busy for me. Friday we leave to spend the night at my cousins house because he lives really far and the next day, Saturday, he's going to be confirmed. It's kind of messed up to see him go through that because I remember when I was in his position, I just hope it's something he also wants and that he's not just doing it because he was forced into it. 

Edit: 9:05p.m.
The Total Lunar Eclipse tonight was pretty cool.

I think I procrastinate to much. 

     So not much to report same old.. same old. Yesterday was uh Valentines Day I'm pretty sure theres a lot of people that were ecstatic about it and a lot were real bitter. Not me though I feel happy for the people who have a (love interest) for lack of a better word to share this day with them. At the same time I don't feel sorry for those who don't have a certain love interest, only understanding. I guess when you get older you learn to accept things and take them for what they are. Anyways moving on yesterday wasn't such a happy day for a couple of college students over in DeKalb. There was a school shooting at NIU (Northern Illinois University) it's sad 15-18 were injured and 5 lost their lives. Talk about a Valentines Day massacre. I know someone who goes there.. she's ok but the eerie thing is that she was on her way to the building where the shooting took place for her next class and she said all of a sudden she saw  all these bloody people running past her. It's getting kind of ridiculous, all these shootings, it's no wonder  foreign countries have such a negative image of the United States.

NIU shooting

Ptw was awesome once again, I felt bummed though because a lot of
people left after The Chariot played. It's a fucked up thing when you
see one of your favorite bands not get the recognition they deserve. 
Don't get me wrong I had fun but afterwards I felt depressed.

 Things have been good, I'm stoked for the PTW show, I haven't even felt the weeks go by at all.  So everything is pretty chill for now, weather sucks but eh its kinda nice I guess If you look at it from a different perspective. Well not much has been up, I like my guitar and psych classes, the others are kinda dry.

Hell yeah ever heard of something called S.A.D (Seasonal affective disorder)? Winter blues man. My strategies for coping? I listen to some music and try to focus on just the music.

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        I think it happens to everyone at least once, They wonder if the grass is really greener on the other side. So they try something new or walk on the other side of the tracks. Usually they dislike the differences and realize that they never appreciated the stuff they had until they disassociated themselves from it. But what happens when they realize that the grass really is greener on the other side? Will the person change so drastically that they purposely forget everything they were or where they came from. Or will they simply negate the person they were while hiding their true self. Does the fear of losing this newly attained happiness act as an incentive to change. Everyone chases happiness like our lives depended on it. People will do incredibly crazy things to achieve it and hold on to it. But it's different for everybody, So how do we know what makes us happy? Is it innate or is it influenced. What if you didn't have to walk on the other side of the tracks, and you can simply trick yourself into being happy...... Think about it maybe you've already been tricked.

I came back yesterday around 7p.m. Mexico was fun I spent some time with my cousins who are around or close to my age met a bunch of family that I never got to meet. we saw some more pyramides, hung out at the plaza, then there was the wedding and after party. The afterparty was fun I sat with my cousins and we were just passing notes to other tables through waiters, talking ,laughing just messing around. They had  2 groups play live and a DJ. Music was eh, not really what I'm into. The last day there we went to this huge event it was bull riding with live music and at the end of the bull riding this group played from 1 to like 3 in the morning and everyone got down to the dirt and danced. I left around 1 because I can't dance that kind of music for shit, I might have stayed if we didn't need to leave the next day. Oh and I think I was in the shower when the new year came, tired as fuck. anyways heres to the New Year.

 Shit man vacations were fun, even I was suprised. It's good to have cousins around your age who know their way around town. I Saw some pyramides, hiked up a mountain overlooking the town, went to my grandparents anniversary wedding and afterparty-, there was like 2 fights at the party, hung out with my cousins in the town square, and the last day we went to go see some bull riding and a couple of bands play, it was ok I'm not a big fan of that kind of music but they weren't that bad. And there was this huge dance at the end only my cousins and sister stayed for that, I can't dance to save my life. Oh and I can't forget... there was juice! not just any juice.. it was BOING! juice. That juice made us hyper as fuck good times. I can honestly say that the only bad part of our stay was jewface, Navi, that chick needs to go get her own fucken family.