I got orientation today...oh well time to take a shower. Man I kinda do  want to go back to school more than I don't. I don't know, summers just aren't the same anymore. Falls coming and thats pretty much my favorite season. Fuck it, this year I'm having Halloween on Christmas I don't care what anyone says.

Zao- Pudgy Young Blondes With Lobotomy Eyes

Pudgy young blondes with lobotomy eyes
Keep their fingers down their throat to attract all the guys
Who will drug them at bars and take them home to his friends
She'll wake up the next day and she'll  do it again
Vomit yourself into the social shining spotlight
Pudgy young blondes with lobotomy eyes
Get fat shoved in their chests and sucked out of their thighs
And your new broken nose will look so good when it mends
Worship MTV, watch and worship the trends
Queen of the congregation at a wax museum
Sit and rest at the feet of your airbrushed deity
Follow
Obey
Fall into the crowd
Falling faster
Blind
You're blind
Roll your eyes
Follow and just pretend
Your life is a shallow fleeting trend
Your life is so shallow

                            So Close To Defeat  by: Terror

Forced  to crawl as the failure wothless gains they broke me

Faught pain with time and hate Til my drive crossed my defeat

Hit me with all your strength So close to defeat gotta push, gotta fight

You won't get the best of me Reactions cut to the kill can't make sense

 of the truth Determination, my only fuse Try and take me out the box

I'm the lion and the fox.

Official message behind the song:

"This is about having the will to get back up when you get knocked down. When life takes a bite out of you, do you have the strength to overcome the damage? Do you have the heart to ride out the storm and push toward better days? In this ugly,cold world, you have to, and you have to be there for the ones you love to carry them when they are down and out."

17 years of life in this world and I still can't fathom why people cling so tightly to this life Everything we own everything we are vanishes once we are dead. and It doesn't matter what we did because the dead can't reminisce. So why then is everyone afraid of death? New medicines to keep us alive new treatments.. Why? What does this life have that keeps us here, temporary bliss, power,money? Or is it Fear?

                             Ahh so lets see an overview on Sunday I went to go see Dana at her house like around 7 I had fun , she's a great girl. Monday just saw this one movie called Libertine that shit was crazy but alright, the rest of the day I just spent at home relaxing. Then today I went to go pick up the new Lamb of God and the new Terror.Blah the 31st I have to go for orientation and to pick up my books. I think school starts the September 7. On the 10th I have a concert coming up so I'm looking forward to that.

By the way people are selling out that shit's not cool.

            You no longer walk the quiet halls of my consciousness you're leaving I can feel it. I had not been that bummed out in a long time thank you for making me stronger. But now I have no use for you and you scatter to find a way to cling on but you're dissapearing you will soon be nothing but a faint memory.

Full Blown Chaos- So Cold

So cold
Absence of those around me
Hide behind lying eyes
Cause you were never there

How can you explain
Your lack of honesty
You took an oath
Broke a bond that we believed

To you I'll turn my back
And face my family
You will never earn the respect
That my friends will recieve

Your life erased from my memory
Nothing left of you
Cause you're dead to me

So cold
Absence of those around me
Hide behind lying eyes
Cause you were never there

You took an oath
Broke a bond that we believed

To you I'll turn my back
And face my family
You will never earn the respect
That my friends will recieve

Your life erased from my memory
Never needed you
All I need is me

NEVER

Never needed you
All I need is me
My friends - my family

Never needed you
All I need is me
Nothing left of you
Cause you're dead to me

To you I'll turn my back
And face my family
You will never earn the respect
That my friends will recieve

Your life erased from my memory
Nothing left of you
Cause you're dead to me

So cold
You're dead to me

"Woe to you Oh earth and sea for the devil sends the beast with wrath because he knows the time is short let him who hath understanding reckon the number of the beast for it is a human number its number is six hundred and sixty six"

Ahh... what a great song don't ya think?    Edit: ******* this one's for you.

BLOOD FOR BLOOD LYRICS

"So Common, So Cheap"

                        Back from South Dakota it was alright, the Sturgis Bike rally/meet was going on and there was a shitload of bikers there. Saw Mt. Rushmore and some other attractions. It was a looong ride there and even longer coming back but im glad to be home.  I saw her "twin" had to look twice just to make sure and even when we left I was still unsure.. wow I still can't get over it that couldn't of been her, maybe I'm just losing it w/e im out.

edit:

Line up all the sluts string them up and burn them Down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                  Im gonna be gone till this  thursday just thought i'd let you know.

                         Fuck man I got a letter from my school for orientation ahh It's nearing that most despised time, oh well. Fuck... senior year already it's surreal how time passes so quickly It seems like just yesterday I was getting lost in the halls of my new school. Oh well at least we'll have "freshie friday" to make us feel better.. throw some pennies at the freshies. haha.

Virgo 8/2/06

Just because you normally have the ability to logically decide what's best for you doesn't mean that you're immune to bad decisions. You may make a choice now for all the wrong reasons, so don't put your fantasies ahead of what you know to be true. If you do, you'll just have to go back to the beginning and start all over again.

man I just.. nvm .im done.

Heres to the girl who didn't know IHOP meant (International House Of Pancakes) - you know who you are. lol.