Whenever I think about my past relationships I realize that the kind of girls I've been in a relationship with were kind of crazy; maybe even warranting a diagnosis from DSM- IV (diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders) but today It hit me... Maybe... They are not the problem. Maybe all this time I was blaming them when I was the one who had a problem. I think I secretly like these "crazy" girls on a subconscious level. I met this girl recently: this girl had everything: She was beautiful, extremely smart, easy to talk to, supportive, I was definitely attracted to her, but I can't bring myself to ask her out and it's not because I'm afraid to because she definitely likes me I just think shes boring. I know what your thinking... 'WHAT THE FUCK?!?!' 
The last girl I actually had feelings for was actually at one point seeing a therapist.(unknown to me while I was seeing her) You're probably like ok lots of people see a therapist to talk about their problems: stress,depression,emotional problems. Yeah but somehow this girl screamed Borderline Personality/Histrionic Personality Disorder
Diagnostic criteria for DSM-IV 301.83: Borderline Personality Disorder
A pervasive pattern of instability of interpersonal relationships, self-image, and affects, and marked impulsivity beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
(1) frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
(2) a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.
(3) identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.
(4) impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, Substance Abuse, reckless driving, binge eating).
(5) recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior.
(6) affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days).
(7) chronic feelings of emptiness.
(8) inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights).
(9) transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms.
Taken from http://www.bpdresources.com/diagnostic.html
Diagnostic criteria for 301.50 Histrionic Personality Disorder
A pervasive pattern of excessive emotionality and attention seeking, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
(1) is uncomfortable in situations in which he or she is not the center of attention
(2) interaction with others is often characterized by inappropriate sexually seductive or provocative behavior
(3) displays rapidly shifting and shallow expression of emotions
(4) consistently uses physical appearance to draw attention to self
(5) has a style of speech that is excessively impressionistic and lacking in detail
(6) shows self-dramatization, theatricality, and exaggerated expression of emotion
(7) is suggestible, i.e., easily influenced by others or circumstances
(8) considers relationships to be more intimate than they actually are
Taken from http://www.behavenet.com/capsules/disorders/histrionicpd.htm
Of course I'm not a psychologist and diagnosing a person with a personality disorder is best left to the professionals. Also in order for the person to be diagnosed they have to show these features across the board with family, friends, and complete strangers not just with one person. Which means I could be wrong but I highly doubt it or perhaps I just want to believe that they are the problem once again. It makes me wonder if they think the same way about me and that sort of makes me laugh. Now if you notice I never said that this girl I recently met had a great personality... that's because to me she doesn't have personality at all. I think ultimately, for me anyways, a girl has to have a killer personality in order for me to fall prey. Maybe thats why I choose these crazy girls because even though their personality is a "disorder" it's more exiting than a girl without a bold/strong personality. My psychology teacher loved to say "Birds of a feather flock together" so I guess that makes me a little crazy too.
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