I want to learn how to dissociate and become separate from myself. It might sound kind of lame but I tried to do this on the way back from school. It's a corrupt coping method but it works. I want to step back and observe myself...
I consumed your facade
it was delicious
yet i felt incomplete
your personality is so transparent
a walking disorder
and your sense of self is a lie
So I'm practically screwed in my photography class but I really don't care anymore.
I always wanted to know how that felt
to not give a damn...
smell of sulfur in the dimly lit room
and the pupils begin to dilate
the clanking and sloshing
equipment and chemicals
creating memories in near darkness
I'd wait for the picture to come close
close...
to some semblance of paradise
I captured you in your finest hour
when your melancholy was a repressed memory
my negatives hold life
preserve life....
my model/subject betrayed me
like paint betrays the artist
and rests on a music sheet silence a musician
I don't care anymore
I let go of the dice
and never looked back.
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