Angel thinks she so "radd" cause she has an underwear pic pshht. lol in other news.......... i still hate her. xD lol

because you kill me... you know you do you kill me well. you like it to and i can tell.

 time to go find some girls. ))

FUCKING WOW! she basically told me she still loves her ex. If that isn't a dead on sign that i should leave her idk what is.

"I never said id take this lying down..."

 So I made two months with monica last thursday, which is like a major accomplishment seeing as her longest relationship ever was 3 months. SPACE is an important part in a relationship, not enough space can mean the end of a relationship. So heres the SPACE its more like 35 minutes on the expressway cause she lives sort of far. Also it is not being like in contact 24/7 cause thats just weird and kinda takes the fun out of a relationship. And it also includes having separate lives and not being immersed in the other person. Monica is so different from the girls im used to: this is the first girl i've ever met that doesn't ABSOLUTELY LOVE talking on the phone, who can't take a compliment whatsoever, and that can kick my ass in videogames fer sure! This is so different to what im used to xD that it's not even funny. Vulnerability sucks ass..

The mind tricks the body,
Body thinks the mind is crazy,
My mind tricks the body,
Body thinks my mind is..

its pretty obvious to me that I end up with girls who treat me like shat...

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Dear god,
 dont let anything happen to that angel girl that I hate so much. xD
                                                                    -Erik

Everything is pretty much ridiculous at this point. After having a talk with my good friend Manny my eyes have been opened up. Maybe I'm in over my head here with this ridiculous excuse for a relationship... Honestly what kind of girl tells you not to get mad but she never wanted the relationship to last. Im so over this though if thats the game we're going to start playing... well im good at this game. I CAN use people too and feel indifferent and give you the drama you need in your life... i can. All this I can do and more. BUT I WON'T. Heres the difference between me and you. I AM NOT AFRAID! thats right i said it. Its a relationship and people get hurt, thats just common sense. I don't care its not like its anything new to me...

Your thoughts are lacerations on my flesh
wanting...waiting..
but the truth lies in bed sick
its all i really wanted.
I never needed you and
all those words i said were to convince myself i liked you
the truth is when we kiss
I feel nothing
yet you're heart beats like crazy
and... you dont care if we end or not?
is that youre final answer?
I call your bluff
but these cards are blank
and i was never really playing this game
sick
so sick of this weight on me
maybe your shoeprints will wash off one day
my shirt is dirty
with a size 6 forever imprinted on my chest.

i hate the fact that suddenly im jealous. :/

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm   monicaaaaaaaaaa xDDDD

 "p.s. The Greatest Lovers Were Murderers First."