The movie, 28 Weeks Later, was
awesome, went to go see it today. So lately I've been hanging out with my cousins, whom I never
really gotten to know, mostly because we live so far. I'm
glad we share much of the same interests, but for some reason I feel
kind of strange around them like there's some "hidden tension" or
something. I feel weird because they have all these questions to ask me
and they look to me for answers/opinions most of the time. It's cool I guess It's not a burden or anything but I can't be a mentor. Susceptible to their many judgments and criticisms and yet the attention is intriguing. Attention-starved? nah it's just a change of pace for once. " I can't see myself as a mentor...I don't know everything, and I don't have answers to people's problems. So I guess for now I'm just seeking respite from the pressure. I guess I shouldn't strive to be a great mentor and instead try to just be there for people despite my tendencies for detachment. But how do I do that?......

Man sometimes I envy existentialists and those who are "detached" I wish I had that "who gives a shit" attitude and the indifference, but I suffer from the "Human Condition."