Fuck man that paper took me forever to write, So I finished all the shit I had to do, and hopefully I can enjoy the rest of the break. Alot of changes ahave been taking place in my life but I feel indifference to them maybe they will strike me later on. I spent some time in the black room where time ceases to exist, The "holiday" was alright the good thing was spending time with family. I can't help but wonder what the future holds for those I care about and myself I just hope in the end we make the right decisions for ourselves and whatever happens happens. You know I've come to realize that as young children we are invincible and as we grow we begin to learn that we can't stop certain things and we eventually learn that we become defeatists and are no longer invincible.

List of things to do?:

• Burn some cunts
• Play some bass
• Shave the wool
• Guitar hero 2?
• Release some stress
• Go to sleep

                                                                                                           [LAMB]

              Today was my last day of school, well for the  year. School was fun, for 4th period Art we played guitar hero 2 and we stayed until the end of fifth period playing that game I would have stayed after school for the anime club and played some more guitar hero 2 but I remembered I had to go get my bass amp from Guitar Center. I finally got it and it's a well improvement from my old pratice amp so now I'm ready for whenever we have band practice it's fairly heavy so it's going to be a challenge lugging it around good thing I don't walk to practice.

                       Winter concert at school today around 7 fuck it maybe I'll go, could use the extra credit for Mendoza's class besides I want to hear the bands play. Winter break is coming up so I'm anticipating that shit, hopefully I'll buy my bass amp from Guitar Center I need it for practice and shit. I joined another band I was reluctant at first because I'm already in a band but I decided this would be a side project to improve my  playing skills as long as it doesn't interfere with my previous engagement I'm good. We had band practice on Monday but the lead guitarist didn't show due to personal problems so we didn't get much done I wasn't feeling it either, which sucks. I wonder where this one's heading. Another practice tommorow I'll see how that goes. Fuck man everyone in this band fucken smokes ,except for me of course and I don't know about the lead guitarist, so car trips are unsettling and annoying.

        R.I.P. Dimebag Darrell

                       I got my paycheck today , finally I thought they made a mistake on the mailing address or something. It feels as if things are really starting to look up.

                It snowed alot yesterday and today school didn't close though, I had to go to turn in my cartouche for art it came out looking good. And then I got a pass from Mrs. Mark to miss spanish so I could finish this contest entry. And then In Sociology class we watched some more of the AIDS epidemic movie, today is National AIDS Awareness Day. Yesterday we had a presentation and this lady named Lee, who has AIDS, came to our school with another dude and they came to talk to us about AIDS. Seeing the shit people must go through and all the stuff that can happen to you strengthened my edge alot.